I CAN'T BELIEVE IT, IT WORKS !!!!!!

I'm from Paris, France & I couldn't reach this forum because of this !ù*$}]windows XP that doesn't accept ZoneAlarm & kills automatically all my downloads !!!!
It happened to agree this when I removed this program but my question is : as I don't have any Firewall except the XP's one, & as it doesn't give me alerts any more, am I about to die, killed by these ****ing crackers of 13 year-old ???
Can smbdy help me with this ????
Thx & may the force be with Antionline !!!