October 2nd, 2003, 05:51 AM
Well, it is 12:31 AM. October 2nd 2003. It has been exactly 1 year now that I have been a member of this site. I never thought I would be here this long when one year ago today I joined. I thought I would make afew posts, possibly meet some people into things like I am into, and then leave like I have many, many, many sites before this.
I usually join a site and make a few posts here and there, and then leave. I'm still here. It's October, which means something to me; For one thing, this marks the begining of cooler temps in my state. I don't like summer because I don't like the hot, humid, stormy weather, and well, that's what summer in Michigan is.
Also, this marks te begining for TV stations to start playing good things on TV. I like horror movies, which unless you are new to this site or never talked to me, you know already. Well, Halloween is also coming.
Being a HUGE Misfits fan, that also means more than watching horror movies on TV. It's special. Also, after October is November; The month I was born, so my Birthday is also coming up and I'll be 21 years old.
Also, after that is December, which means snow, Christmas/The birth of Jesus, and a new year. I'm Christian so it does mean more to me than presents and time off of school. And new years is always something for me.
Also, I was thinking about all I'v been through in the passed year, which is ALOT. I joined this site one year ago today. In the last year, I have had multiple GFs, Written 11 Bastard admin from Michigan stories, gotten new movies, had some great times, and also some bad ones.
I lost my Unckle that I grew up with. That was hard on me. I didn't take it very well. I also damn near had a nervouse break down realising things I have wong with me. I never thought about the fact that I have had tourrette's and OCD and ADD and Social anxiety disorder since I was a kid. I never thought about it untill I saw it on TV.
It bothered me too see people act it out. It also made me look into it, and scared the **** out of me. I was so depressed about it, I Prayed an asked God to help me out, and God did. I'm feeling much better now. It just bothered me badly to even think about it. I guess I never thought about it before so it didn't bother me, but I couldn't stop thinking about it and it was torture.
If I don't think about it, it doesn't bother me though. I'v also lost friends this year. My best friend moved away, far away, to the other side of the state. I havn't seen him in about 5 months now.
Most of my other friends are gone too. I made some new ones but you can't replace them. I also went through alot with some of my ex GFs. Some were them wanting me back and others were them starting **** with me.
I have really been through alot this year. Good and bad both. I also went through **** here on AO. People that were my friends stopped talking to me, people I didn't really know starting rumors about me, alot of bullshit they would NOT say to my face.
And yes I'm sure of that because I offered to pay for a plane ticket for one of them to come here and they never responded. Yes, I can actually get that angry over someone in another country that I'd pay the way for them to come here so they can't hide behind a keyboard.
I was thinking about all the things I have gone through in the last year and I grabbed my keyboard and started playing. I came up with a little melody that sounds like I feel. Maybe if people actually want to hear it I'll upload it to a web site after I record it. All it is, is a small piano sound right now. I'll add a bass line and guitar riff to it later on. And maybe a drum line.
Anyway, thanks to God, I am still here, and still ok. To the people who havn't talked **** behind my back; Thanks for being there and being an actual friend to me. To the people who hated me from day one; Thanks for having the balls to be honest. To the people who talked **** behind my back; **** you, from gore.
The Gore Father - October 2nd, 2003.
October 2nd, 2003, 06:04 AM
Congrats dude, 4 more months and I'll be celebrating my one month and it seems like just yesterday I had 10 posts and 2 red dots and was whining that everyone hated me The times they are a changing.. Anyways glad you are still here.. I couldn't imagine life without the Bastard Admin...
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October 2nd, 2003, 02:47 PM
Happy Anniversary gore
To let you know i never talk behind your your back i'm not that type of person if i have something to say i'll say to you.And that the way i am in person i say what i feel i never hold back I know how it is to lose a friend my best friend of 25 years has move to a different state and we only talk once in the blue moon of if something wrong with her computer lol. I call everybody here friends without faces. Just keep your head up and think postive and things do get better believe me i know i had been through alot myself. Again gore congrats on your anniversary.
I had to google 'jfgi' to see what it meant. The irony is overwhelming.
October 2nd, 2003, 03:54 PM
You have been a welcome contribution to AntiOnline, gore, hope to see another post like this in a years time.
October 2nd, 2003, 05:21 PM
Whoa, heh, thanks guy, didnt think I'd get a good responce like this.
October 2nd, 2003, 06:04 PM
hey gore ..i know we didnt tlak that mcuh but you are a cool guy and i'm enyoing your membership here ...tx for everything ...
October 2nd, 2003, 06:15 PM
I'll be expecting that cash by Paypal.
October 2nd, 2003, 08:20 PM
I knew no one wanted me here without me paying them
October 3rd, 2003, 04:53 AM
Gore I've been in and out of AO and from the time you have sign on to now you are one of the few people I remember.
You really make some fine contributions to AO and I hope you stay for many more years to come.
Happy Anniversary Gore and I hope you have a very good year ahead.
- The mind is too beautiful to waste...
October 3rd, 2003, 05:24 AM
BIG BIGHTS OH SORRY.... I MEAN HUGS *winks winks*