i think that people worship god out of fear....fear of the fact that if they dont they will be screwed. personally, i have not seem him at work. the most religious people i know are also the biggest *******s. certainly in times such as these, id like to believe there was some higher being, but i have a hard time thinking that God would lead all his children to hate and kill eachother. there are many things that i cant see that i know are there-radio waves, electricity, etc. but at the same time i can see their effects. i think that God is too often just an excuse for the unexplainable, i remain a skeptic. im sorry that you have been through tough times there shantz, but suicide is a cop-out. dont ever consider it an option.