I have some suggestions.

1. Do not worry about the negative antipoint assignments. It happens.

2. Have somebody proof-read your tutorials. When something is hard to understand, people tend to think it is a sign of low intelligence.

3. There is a lot of unwritten rules here. Maybe somebody should post "AO's Unwritten Rules" that might help n00bs quite a bit.

4. Lastly, groveling and sniveling about being at -150 and all the apologies will only make things worse, albeit in good intentions. You will learn very quickly the road to hell is paved with good intentions.

Hope this helps.