I just really need to get this off my chest because i dont talk to anyone.
Have you tried a journal? You can use the ones here at AO, or there are numerous free websites that offer journals. I personally don't use the one here, only because there are things I don't want all you boys to read Hard enough to be taken seriously here without acting all girly! Lol...but seriously...try a journal somewhere. I know a lot of people here use livejournal, and I personally use Diaryland (under a nick none of you will know so don't waste your time looking :P) and I get a lot of stress relief from just blowing off everything there. The nice thing about your own journal is no one is going to tell you it's stupid, or to get over it, or anything like that.

I agree that your life hasn't been a bed of roses, but the thing to remember is that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and if you learn from what you go thru in life, you won't repeat it, and it will give you direction in your life, and something to aim for.

Deb