ok, i thought about this for a lil bit, im going to take this like a man, i got negged and negged again, but, obviously some of you actually appreciate the fact that im here, so, im done with whining about the post i made earlier, im still not to sure why people were so offended by it (if you were offended by it, would you please PM me, i wanna discuss this so i at least know what part bothered you...i thought i was helping) and to DR toker, man, as i said before, you dont wanna do that to yourself, one thing i can say is, find something that makes you happy, concentrate on that, and wait out whatevers bothering you, it WILL get better soon, and trust me man, iv said it before and ill say it again, i regret everytime i ever tried commiting suicide, i still look back and cant believe i did it, im glad im still alive, i give thanks every night for having myvision, my hearing, my abilities, my intelligence, and for being alive and getting threwthe day, honestly i was so selfish to ever think about suicide, not only would the people that cared be upset, but it was a really dumb idea that i still regret to this day, theres people in the world who dont have vision, hearing or who are diabled, they have it WAY WORSE than i do, and iv seen them happy, i still get angry at me for being so selfish because of that, and now i try getting out a smile and staying happy as possible, because i still have all these things, i just dont know how i got so selfish that i wanted to die when i already had it better than some people ever do, so , DR, please, think about this before you take a seriouse meassure, i dont personally know you but man no matter how much you think your hated, someone somewhere does love and care for you, (i have anxiety disorders so if people dont tell me they love me, i get depressed or think people hate me, but iv had to learn that it isnt true) and Dr toker i wish you luck and i hope you get threw this and i hope you get happy,also, i reccommend listening to lots of music, i dont know your tastes but at first listening to something like slipknot or old KORN for a few days to get the anger out can actually help, after that put in some good huored music, something like marilyn manson, NOFX and tool, artists that have a sence of humor, and hopefully youll get threw this.