Hi

I am writing this thread out of frustration.

I love computers, i always try to learn more, i dream about computers and see myself as a "semi-computer" , thus to become a machine , means thinking logical, and that i strive for.

But, then a small part of me cant stop thinking about the SOCIAL implications of a computer.


REASON:One day my family wont be no more and all memorys that i will have is...........
..........ABSA-****ING-LUTELY NOTHING..........

I used to spend atleast 11 hours of my day on my computer(i used to wake up about 8:00 and go to sleep about 01:00 the morning and i do home-schooling).

After realising these sociel implications, I now try to be with my family(especially my mother (in her condition)) as much as possible.

Therefore i now only get on the PC when my MOM goes to sleep(about 22:00) to about 02:00 then i go sleep.
I feel so lonely/frustrated/sad/depressed when i turn my computer on and KNOW that i could be sharing
these precious moments with my family.

Does anyone outhere feel the same???