"the boring cess-pool we live in"

You live in the United States of America, you list hobbies such as "chess, skateboarding, etc", you have access to the internet, and you have an opinion you are allowed to voice. There are people on this planet who would view your life as an unimaginable gift. You have no idea what a "boring cess-pool" you could live in. Even a "true hacker", as you so humbly describe, with an attitude or outlook such as that, will never be happy no matter what they accomplish. Some people talk alot, they just don't say much.