This basically is a suicide post.
I could have shut up and continued my AO-life normally without anyone knowing this, but I need to prove you wrong, in that, I HAVE SEEN THE LIGHT.

{---------this here is what I was gonna reply to this threadHow Can I Be Anonymous?
{mmmmhhhhh......
{I didn't ask anyone to believe my watchword, no, I stated what I think AO is about-> {COGNITION.
{Then again what was I cerebrating, of openly addressing everyone here with the word {HACKER( even though I still feel the same), I should have known that you would see it amiss.
{Just by the envisage of someone giving out the term hacker so freely it would seem like {epithet.
{----------end


My reply to this:
*thinks about getting a poll entitled "How long do you think HANDzCLEANx will stay on the forum with his oh-I've-now-seen-the-light-type attitude"*
Is my life-story:
Oh, I have seen the light , really.

Look, swell, I was programming for a while before "node security" interested me.
At that time I was a WAREZ-master(believe me on this if you desire), downloading tons of games, knowing wich site has the goods, and wich dont, where to vote, where not to vote.
Then someday I was watching CNN and observed a report about "hackers"(wich by they meant crackers), it was all about *-hatz , I was amazed(just like the common Skiddy).
I went on an ascertaining mission to find out how to hack via yahoo, and found AO amongst others.
The 1st time I saw the name "Anti-Online" made me think that this place would make me a supreme "hacker"(at that time I thought it implied cracker), but I needed an e-mail account ,seperate from the one I had(to keep my details secret incase the CIA found this site ), but I didnt't have the patience(needed to start "hacking" right away) to get a new account, so it had to wait.
At even time with my search I found SUB7 legends, and the same night I was on an IRC stalking people.
I was getting deep into it, I re-invented wheel(in terms of tricks to get ppl to download SUB7 server) everytime that I was on the net.
I was so deep into SUB7 that I wrote a cluster load of programs for this whooping game, programs to find patterns in the target, to search-and-destroy data, grapghs to keep my record of hits per surf,etc.
I was ascertained that I was the best "hacker" in the world(or atleast in South Africa).


On my hunt to find more, I searched Yahoo again and again found AO, since I was lusting for "supreme hackeracy", I decided AO is the place( with such a freaky name no one could argue).

I was DOLT-HEADED and at fisrt didn't bother to enter any of the threads, no, I went on a search for more tools(script-kiddy tools that is), and all my search for tools only ended up in a bunch of trojan-servers being installon my PC(wich was a common thing to me at that time).
Eventually, I quickly checked out some of the threads, nah.....bbbbbbooooooooorrrrrrrriiiiiiinnnnnngggggg........

My search on Yahoo continued, I found a site with a "HACKERS TESTAMONY".........COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLL........that gave me an idea......
I would just remove this "idiot's" name(no offense theMentor ), and replace it with my name....... there perfect, now I can make a great introduction for myself(My pathetic introduction ).

So, I posted it and a bunch of other CRAP(and lies) just to IMPRESS everyone(there you go theSpecialist ), and got banned. Little did I know that that was my turning point, that it was my time when " I saw the light".

I was really shocked, I didn't understand why nobody felt like I did, that is, to be able to break into any possible system and claim supreme "crackerdom . My short previous-life here at AO taught me what are hacker-ETHICs, it taught me what is the difference Hacker and ScriptKiddy.

Since I was banned, I never ever tried/searched anything to do with hacking. Because I realised I was no better than a SKid...............I then was so PIST OFF at AO that I must have surely, subconsciously, sweared that I would never com back to this "damned" site.

In my fav, I had bunch of links that I got here,before I was banned. I spent months accumulating knowledge through these links and their links and their links.......Learning HTML,JAVASCRIIPT,PERL/CGI,API. Then, suddenly, there was no more to read from all these links. I tried yahoo for "free e-books" but was not in any luck.....I got those links from AO, so AO must have more( at that time i didn't think that there are other forums on the net).
So I came back, for help/links for API................Now I'm busy with MPASM for microcontollers....

As time went by, I realised that I was not, even in the least bit, interested in any "security threads", the posts that I have posted on security forums are there because those threads
were on the main page, and I dont read the "fine" detail below the thread headings.


Back then I was a liar and a cheat.
But now I speak whatever I feel I must, and I must have you believe me.

To me, the term "hacker , is not relevant to breaking/defending anything(not networks, nothing), the term "hacker" is just a TERM to describe someone.
"Hacker" is relavent to knowledge.
I would call someone a "hacker" if he has a love for knowledge related to computers- THAT ALL, nothing more nothing less.
I call AO the "hacker-playground" because everyone here is always asking questions, be it simple , be it sophisticated, they are questions.
Even if some dont want to share, they too are searching for more knowledge, just like the rest of us here, thus, they too are hackers in my view.

I will prob get banned, but I learned another great lesson: Everyone wants the crown jewel of knowledge, kind souls are willing to share, the rest will try to gaurd it well,thus keeping the standards high. Everyone wants to tell themselfs,in their heart, that they are the best, so, never ever provoke them by using words that might wrongly imply supremecy, like "Hacker", to one self or any other.

MY PREVIOUS PROFILE( defintite suicide)

So thats my story.
Judge me any way you wish, because, now you have a clear view of who and what I am........
(and I have a clear view of where I'm going)